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Guided breathing meditation with
Mark Golding
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LETTER FROM ASCRIBE 13

From a single point, or single thought, an entire universe of growth can develop.

Consider how you may have reached this point of your life, as a series of steps or crossroads reached, and how at each step or crossroads, a decision has been made as whether to proceed, and in which direction.

I am going to suggest that there is never a time at which life changing decisions can be initiated.

So... for the highest aims and goals to be reached a very clear, firm, strong and focused thought is needed, not a hazy and vague idea.

And, the clearer the thought or idea, the brighter it appears in the mind, and the easier it is to see with clarity, and therefore without associated doubts and confusions.

When a good idea or thought enters my mind, and this appears to happen spontaneously, I write it down, and then return to it a little later and see if I can imagine a positive outcome resulting from developing the idea... So, some ideas fall by the wayside, but every now and again, one develops a life of its own, and contributory ideas arrive in a synchronistic manner, aiding and supporting the original thought.

It appears as if the idea has a life of its own, and events and ideas arrive to nourish the idea that would otherwise have not arisen, in my mind or from external sources.

I truly believe that amazing, unique and potentially world changing ideas arise in everyone's minds, quite regularly, but we can overlook them as distractions, or dismiss them as too grandiose.

So, I am going to suggest that each one, you too, has the potential to create a better life for yourself, those close to you, and even change the world for the better.

Do not deny your potential!

Monday, 5 January 2009

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LETTER FROM ASCRIBE 12

I have been wondering what lies beneath... It is what dwells within.

It is what is in our very centre, and it is that which unites us all... We all have a common wish, a common goal... To live in love, peace and harmony.

Above this deep seated commonality lies a series of layers, which we use as a defensive and protective mechanism which actually serves to harm us. It is, in effect, a layer of confusion, generally caused by the batterings we have experienced throughout our lives.. You know, the damage that we feel has been caused by those that tell us that they love us, and that we should trust them, but have actually harmed us.

This need not be a series of damages, as it is possible to learn, with wisdom, to use these events to learn how not to react to those with false motives...

How is this done?

A quotation springs to mind... 'Those who ignore the past are condemned to repeat it'.

We can trust our developed instinct, and listen to those whose experiences and example have proved to us they have no malicious or selfish intention, even if this means abandoning people from our past, as to develop we have to leave the past behind, taking the lessons, but abandoning the pain.

Not to hard to do really, it is about separating ourselves from pain, through thorough experience, witnessing and acceptance, not denial and shovelling away into a corner.

As, the traumas that harm us continue to do so as they have not been fully understood and aired, and lie dormant, awaiting an opportunity to revisit, but once fully acknowledged, lack the power they have previously held, as their weaponry and methodology are known to us... We know the enemy!

I wish to find the courage to return, within my mind, to those pains and traumas, and focus and highlight them, and wither them through thorough interrogation and examination. Know thy enemy!

They are much smaller than they initially appear, and lack any power once confronted... There is no enemy without for the person with wisdom, only memories of past events, as, in this present moment, we can stop, for a few seconds, look around us and see no enemy!

Monday, 29 December 2008

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LETTER FROM ASCRIBE 11

Integrating problems, seeing problems through another lens, or transforming problems... How is this done?

Well, today I will probably encounter 1000 problems, large, medium and small, and each of these events will arise, beyond my control, but I do have the capacity to control my response.

Do I stand rigid and fight back at each problem, square on, inflexible and impassive, determined to overcome each as it arises through sheer obstinacy, and then end my day exhausted and dejected as I failed on so many occasions, and so unhappy that I failed in my mission to defeat all my problems and difficulties?

It is rather like a fighter trying to take on 1000 opponents a day, every day, and not realising that another method might be more practical, simple and effective.

I'm thinking of how the martial arts master's use their opponents strength as a weapon against them... As the bull like opponent rushes headlong at them, they use a gentle movement to move themselves to one side, and then deflect the opponent to the floor by using the minimum of effort, perhaps with a small wrist movement.

Simple, clear and refined movements, requiring mimimal physical effort, leaving the master adept, strong, nourished and fully able to continue his dance through his army of opponents.

Minimal effort, simple side stepping, allowing the opponent's flow to pass by without any full on impact, and also conserving the master's strength and energy.

As today's problems appear, take a different stance. It is not possible to avoid problems, but it is possible to become a master at our response to problems. Each is an opportunity to develop flexibility, to engage and experience an energetic flow, that need not be hard, unforgiving and impassive, but can be experienced as a gentle breeze, using a mental martial art, that becomes aware of how that gently moving the mind to one side prevents a full on onslaught by the problems and issues that arise.

See each problem, difficulty or issue as a friend, not an enemy, and then at the end of each day we will not have been at war all day, but have been engaged in a dance of constant motion, a unifying and nourishing process.

I am going to pass through my day, today, accepting each problem, and seeing each as an opportunity to experience a new flexibility and fluidity of attitude... I am going to play with today, not fight it!

Love and more, mark x

Tuesday, 23 December 2008

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LETTER FROM ASCRIBE 10

It is good to talk...

How many times have I heard that phrase, and just let it move away from my mind, but, since I have been writing, I have been talking, and I am beginning to realise why 'it is good to talk'.

By talking I can express what I have been thinking about, and more to the point, what has possibly been on my mind for days, weeks, months or even years. And, when I have talked about it, I have had to clarify my thoughts to try and express fully what it is I am trying to say, or need to say, and as a result I begin to understand what has been going on in my mind.

So, it enables me to see clearly what I have been thinking... I gain some clarity.

This is not a one off experience, as I am beginning to understand that by managing to release a layer of thought, and being free of the static of that layer of unexpressed thought, I am then able to realise a deeper level of thought, one that had been previously obscured by the initial layer...

Cutting through the layer of static, facilitates a fresh clarity, and an opportunity to progress further, and I am learning, quite quickly, that a side effect of this is that I become less afraid of myself, as the fears I tend to have are merely unexpressed doubts and concerns that increase as a result of not being expressed or talked about... It is a win-win situation.

Kinda like when we hear someone else's problems we can often see that they are maybe not as large as they may have appeared.

Try not to be afraid of expressing fears and concerns, and maybe most importantly, do not think it is a sign of weakness, as I think it takes great strength to open up, and talk about the troubles we may have, and express emotions. Crying is good, not a weakness, and let no-one convince you otherwise. Express and feel, it is empowering...

It is good to talk. x

Tuesday, 16 December 2008

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LETTER FROM ASCRIBE 9

It is so important to make space, and take time, just for personal understanding... But therein lies an enigma.

By seeking understanding we stand in the way of a natural and profound experience, as in the material form, understanding through the analysis and observation of the material is coloured by a history, a weight of expectation and desire of experience.

We create a lens through which we experience or witness.

So, within the time we can take for our own development, we can prepare intellectually, but we have to surrender to whatever is manifesting, and will manifest, in a manner that has abandoned our usual frames of reference, and that can experience.

This can initially be accompanied with a fear, a fear of letting go, a fear of abandoning control, as to move into a less restrained and confined position we must abandon our wishes, needs and desires to experience a more universal essence that we can control from our human bodies.

This underlying experience is that of which we all are, and all we have ever been, and all that we shall ever be, and at that time the material, and the appearances of this life are seen as that, mere appearances.

Therein lies freedom, but to leave the vessel of our usual lives, feels like jumping from an aircraft without a parachute, and of course, it is scary as we mght never come back... Or if we do we might be badly damaged.

But all is well, it is all good, as no harm lies at our very centre, all that is to be found is peace, love and a universal connection. And faith, any faith... your faith or my faith, will be the lifeline, the cord that holds your heart true, and will always protect the traveller.

Friday, 12 December 2008

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LETTER FROM ASCRIBE 8

Where does our energy come from?

Some comes in the physical aspect as material nourishment, derived from the physical, but on a more subtle level we sit astride a fountain, a source of unlimited potential.

And this source is never ending, and never needs replenishing as it has the aspect of being able to provide more energy, in direct relationship to the amount we choose to use. The more we use, the more we can use, and, I believe that if we can align ourselves to receive, and channel to higher aims and goals, the source will find ways in which to empower and enable our wishes and dreams.

It contains a wisdom that can 'see' our inner motivation and our intention, and should this align with the directions of the pure and true energy, and we can act in accordance, using our own capabilities and propensities, our abilities to manifest the energy in the material world will begin to increase in a symbiotic relationship to our current capacity.

And, this in turn will increase our capacity, as we grow in alignment, so what seems impossible today, will be possible tomorrow as we shall only be able to use the capacity we are privileged to utilise at any one time.

There is no limit, as we shall grow as our understanding grows, and we shall grow into the increased capacity when it is time.

So, increase your dream, increase your wish to improve the world around you, and the never ending source will nourish you. You will not be ignored or overlooked, you will be nourished... It is waiting to say hello, and then be your greatest friend and ally! m x

Monday, 8 December 2008

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LETTER FROM ASCRIBE 7

As I sit upon the precipice of the next moment, I can extend my direction along certain paths I wish to travel, with a relative degree of certainty that I will reach some of my daily destinations. I will attain some of my goals for today, though I will also encounter circumstances that are truly beyond my anticipation.

Maybe social interactions are the best example of the unknown, both when I meet those I know and also when I meet those I have never previously encountered, as so often it is with social interaction that the most unexpected interactions occur.

The interplay between myself and others is the most extraordinary of events. From the moment of social awareness, the frisson that arises when I realise I am about to greet or meet someone, to the subtle awareness's of body language, visual appearance and presence, into the interplay of eye contact, verbal communication and scent, and then into the most subtle interplay of mind to mind communication... That from which we actually meet and share.

And, at that moment when I become fully aware of the contact of mind to mind, at that very instant, what can I do? As, at this time, the trajectory of the contact, and indeed of any potential relationship, depends upon the subtle interplay of mind to mind.

Me? Well I try to extend an acceptance, a loving and open arena for the other's mind to experience, extending a mental hand of friendship, safety and compassion. I have learned that the natural wish that I have for myself is not different from the natural wish others have for themselves, and so I try to offer the wish I have for myself to others.

And in this way it is not contrived and manipulative.

It is a humbling experience to realise that I am no different than others, and that I reside in the same mental forest groves as everyone else, with all the same beauty and potentials, and the sunshine within each of us, that flame of faith within us all, can illuminate and nourish both others and myself.

Saturday, 6 December 2008

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LETTER FROM ASCRIBE 6

I was invited to address a group of doctors at the medical school, based at the Sussex County Hospital, and today I delivered a 2 hour lecture...

I find it so inspiring that the NHS (National Health Service) are opening their doors to aspects of healing and spirituality, as for many years, the British Health Service has been based on empiricism and only now, are they beginning to realise the efficacy of the holistic approach to health and healing.

The group were mainly attentive and enthusiastic, even when I suggested a guided group meditation and relaxation, and the level of acceptance following the meditation indicated that they had been affected by their experience. Only one, yes one, of the entire group had any previous experience of meditation.

Explaining the difference between curing and healing met some barriers with the more traditionally minded doctors, but I believe that over the course of the 2 hours I managed to make a fair point.

What delighted me most is that the NHS is prepared to take on board the possibility that 'alternative' methods are worth pursuing and developing, and that the holistic approach to health and well being is rapidly entering the mainstream here.

So, I applaud those doctors and decision makers whose courage in venturing into the 'unknown' will result in the development of a more complete and efficacious health service for their patients. It is a brave step for the traditionalists, and it is up to us, those who see, feel and work with the integrated mind, spirit and body to show the way. To be living, walking, talking examples, worthy of our responsibilities.

Wednesday, 3 December 2008

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LETTER FROM ASCRIBE 5

To be able to share ideas and thoughts, uninterrupted, is a rare occurrence. To explore one's conjectural and spiritual aspirations, ideals and concepts, with an open and listening ear is such a beautiful experience.

Normally, in such uttered or otherwise expressed situations, the listener unpicks the statement, from their perspective, and waits for an opening or opportunity to relate their understanding, which more often than not, finds flaw or fault.

However, when these flaws or faults are raised, with a positive response, a considered and encouraging response, the result can be growth and development, as a sense of nurturing is engendered, a sense of safety is nurtured, and this predicates a further possibility to explore even further.

This does not mean that a blithe and disconnected listener is best, but a wise and considerate listener, who wishes to encourage the speaker's wisdom and knowledge, through the use of affirmations of the positive, rather than an accent on the negative, is rare.

As, it appear to me, that so often, in conversations of a spiritual subject matter, that the listener wishes to impose their own belief system, (though possibly this is inadvertent), to 'correct' the speaker. It is a rare listener that can facilitate a safe environment for the speaker to explore, and further develop within their own capacity and faith, without the imposition of their own beliefs.

To develop within ones own inner path is to be celebrated, nurtured and encouraged, whatever the faith, as 'Faith is the Flame in our Heart', the profound sense of security and protection that resides within us.... And, should we choose to nurture our faith, our individual faith, then this should be encouraged and praised!

We all have a separate faith I believe, though often based upon similar understandings and beliefs, but our individual capacities and propensities are our own actual path... Our Faith, our sacred, precious and rare Faith!

Monday, 1 December 2008

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LETTER FROM ASCRIBE 4

Where is a scribe without an oracle?

The two work together, and cannot exist without each other, like female and male, day and night, light and dark. A symbiosis that shifts and changes in it's proportion and relationship.

And as with day and night, there are times when they meet, and gradually shade into each other, as one begins to become the pre-dominant side...

But with female and male, the relationship of women with men, in everyday life and within personal relationships, an extra dimension of acceptance of the other's strengths is absolutely necessary for the relationship to develop and grow.

We hear that behind every great man is a strong woman, and I would also suggest that behind every great woman is a strong man. I can almost hear your thoughts as you think of say... Mother Theresa... Well, I am not suggesting that I know exactly what goes on in individuals lives, I am attempting to realise my own dependency upon the women in my life, and also the aspects of the feminine that exist within me.

Maybe a hackneyed topic in the age of the metrosexual man, but for someone whose feminine aspects are often powerful, contradictory and challenging, the shifting sand of the yin/yang within my psyche and physiology, are balanced and tuned within a relationship with the women within my life.

My external relationships with women balance my internal movements, but, this takes a surrender of certain masculine traits of strength and superiority, and this can be quite overwhelming, a chosen disengagement from some genetic traits, almost a taking over of the wisdom of the greater need than merely the emotional.

To do this, I must feel safe, and I do. I am so fortunate to have so many astonishing women in and around my life, providing safety for me to explore and grow, my family, my friends and my wife, together combined as my special girls, all women... each of the beautiful women with whom I learn, you with whom I can share, now... I am the scribe.

Friday, 28 November 2008

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LETTER FROM ASCRIBE 3

Sometimes it is time to act, to initiate actions from thought, to manifest our wishes and dreams, initially within our perceived capacity and ability, using our sincerity and and the power of our hope. Also understanding, or realising, that the power of directed thought is virtually limitless in its potential to create an effect, that can and does manifest in the real world around us.

After all, whenever great things have happened in this world, it can be seen that one person, (and that includes you and I), has had a dream, an idea, and once the idea has clarified, it can be developed, nurtured, nourished and eventually manifested in our words and actions, thus facilitating the manifestation of the idea in the physical world.

Why are we not great persons in this way? Well, we are! As, what is the difference between us and the great ones? So little really, and each of the great ones realised that their dreams could not be realised alone or in isolation, so their dream was shared, united and empowered by a sense that greater things happen as a result of community of purpose.

So many people around the world are working for the greater good, but also with the wisdom that alone, the responsibilty to change the world is too great, but with unity of purpose, even in a general sense, each contribution adds to the momentum of the dream.

Faith is the Flame within your Heart!

Monday, 24 November 2008

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LETTER FROM ASCRIBE 2

There are wars happening all over the world, some we know about, and many we do not. Conflicts and troubles too small to warrant media attention.

I'm going to report on one little known conflict that is happening, in a mind near you (virtually speaking)...

This is a war that goes on, in my mind, so very close to me, so close I can never escape it, and so close to me that I cannot see it, but from time to time I can sense its presence, as the shells and bullets fly, troops dig in, are then sent over the top into hand to hand combat, whilst the navy and air force are doing their things, sometimes using the highest of technologies and communications, and sometime using the most basic of brute forces and thuggeries.

And what about the command post? The Head Office? The master controller who dictates the overall thrust and direction of the war, but leaves the small local conflicts to the local commanders, who in turn turn a blind eye to the hand to hand conflicts, right at the very front line.

The command post, with a large world map on the wall, covered in coloured tags and arrows, and another on the table, where the smaller local conflicts are represented by small icons being shoved about to represent the shifting dynamic of the conflict.

The wile and cunning of the enemy knows no bounds, and will happily engage in any form of deception, including flattery and false trails to lead me adrift, and also espionage is a real threat, as there is what I think is called 'leakage' whereby the enemy seems to know what I am preparing...

I need some sort of code that cannot be broken, a la 'enigma' and also a weaponry, system and understanding of the enemy that means, whether long or short term, even if I lose 100 battles in a run, I will not be deterred of disheartened, I will continue the war, until things are resolved.

All I wish for is a completely peacful mind, no conflict whatsoever, so I can see and feel what is best for me, and those around and close to me, so my response to a situation will never be one of anger or irritation, jealousy or impatience.

So, when peace reigns, the war to end all my wars will be won. I am about to commence a public war, a war where (in my mind) there are no losers... An unusual war. m x

Friday, 21 November 2008

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LETTER FROM ASCRIBE 1

Hey, new day and all that, so, here I go along the path.

The pathway that leads to my destination, to my journey's end. Now... I can hope for a final destination, and wish for one too, and then I can aim for it.

Or, I can ignore the possibilities that exist as possible destinations, and hide my head in the sand, choosing to allow 'ahem' fate to lead me.

And, everything in between.

So, given the choice, where do I want to end, or more importantly, who do I want to end up being? What attributes of my life do I wish accentuate, develop and grow? Which do I wish to abandon, remove and uproot? And what attributes and aspects of behaviour, insight and wisdom do I seek to discover, plant and encourage.

Well, I have to look around and see who is doing what. What and who I like, admire and respect, and then learn. As, there is no person on this planet, who does not have a positive attribute that I can aspire too. I have an opportunity to learn, refine and develop from every encounter, trying to look through eyes of wisdom to see what I can learn.

It's so easy for me to be dismissive and arrogant, thinking the validity of my insight and understanding is greater than that of others, and it is that, which serves to blinker me. I'm not banging on about a servile humility, I'm really interested in a questioning enthusiasm as to what is available, all around me, every day, and what I can derive from life's continual spectrums...

A soft, gentle hunger, a desire born of dreams of peace, to increase the sparks, breathe life into the flames, to warm from the inside, allowing, eventually, to convey that which brings me some small joy, and with this, pass truth along with a smile and a soft word.

Thursday, 20 November 2008

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SPIRITUAL ORGANIC 216

I'm not sure I want to talk about peace, love and happiness today, I'm thinking that self-loathing is the thought of the day...

Now, I'm not in the midst of that particular maelstrom right now, but I have just had one of those moments when I could recall, see and taste what it was like.

That imprisoning and crippling deformation of reality, that distorts and twists, obscures and confuses, ensuring that no exit exists, and no respite can be found, other than oblivion.

And, when it was at its strongest for me, it was added to by a sense of guilt that I should be so concerned about myself. Adding to the mix, and, I was my own torturer...

Serious and heavy stuff.

That was then, but the memory is strong! Loud and clear! So, what happened, what started its retreat? Well, it started when I realised that when others spoke kind words to me, uttered gentle praise or offered compliments, these words had a power, a power that I did not have to shun for fear of being exploited, but a power to illuminate a pathway out of my prison.

I had to be gracious enough to accept what was coming my way, be they words of encouragement, respect or love, and this was terrifyingly difficult, as I could not trust. I thought that by opening up to love, compliments or kind words I would be weakened, vulnerable and exposed, and this would increase the possibility of being exploited.

I have not got it perfect just yet, as some have slipped in under my radar (and hurt or used me), but I can say that I have learned to trust first, and question later. This is better for me, and as a result of my mistakes I have developed an increased intuition as who I can trust. And, in the end it all becomes clear, as eventually true personality shows, and we can see who our real friends are.

As someone said to me recently 'a bad penny takes a long time to drop'!

Find solace with your trusted and loved ones, do not be afraid, as the beautiful ones, the light ones, have no agenda other than to help you to be free from your self loathing. xx

Tuesday, 18 November 2008

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SPIRITUAL ORGANIC 215

Individual - Separate - Together - As One

A seemingly contradictory collection of words and concepts, but this is a common experience, a reality, a truth for us. I'm saying us, as over the weekend we spent some time letting go of ordinary appearances and conceptions and tried to see what actually lies behind 'reality'.

Individual. Well we both have our identities, history, hang-ups, problems, issues and families.

Separate. We are isolated from each other, in the physical sense, and sometimes in the emotional and spiritual sense.

Together. We are linked together, in relationships, friendships and families.

As One. Beneath the normal appearances and conceptions, and even aside from the subtle existence, lies a commonality, a thread, network or system that links everyone and everything together.

We can understand this partially, by realising that we are all comprised of the same substances, in the form of atomic structure, but also that in the subtle worlds that exist beneath the 'normal' world, the man made conceptions of linear space and time do not actually exist.

It was described as, and experienced by me in this way.

Access to the subtle, or etheric world enables communication without restrictions, rather like the internet. We can, from our computers, access any website at any time, and also communicate and interface with any one, any where at any time.

Distance is no object, and we can email 1000's of people in one mailing, and also the networking sites, such as facebook offer common notice boards for our notifications and public communications.

Once we have entered the subtle world, it is possible to communicate, subtly to any one, anywhere.

We discovered that we could share thoughts with each other, and wondered if we could also share thoughts with others, not in the same physical space as us. And, we can.

In this subtle world exists a safety, a love and a trust that allows the safe development of our wishes, dreams and capacities for growth and development, and more.

And we conceived a wish, a dream, we shaped and discussed it, and managed to, in the imaginary capacity to fully realise the dream. And, from dreams and wishes, reality can be born.

Our wish? That everyone, all over the world, with any faith, faith in their highest potential would glimpse that inner realisation, realise that it can happen, and that would trigger a desire to fulfill that very potential and their highest capacity for love, compassion, truth and healing would be ultimately realised.

And that in turn would inspire those without faith, by their direct observation of other's inner potential as manifested by actions, thoughts and deeds, to realise that they too had potential, causing faith in their own potential, though latent, dormant and obscured, and thus their faith and potentials be ignited and nourished to develop and grow.

And, this in turn facilitated, finally and ultimately, all beings to realise their highest states. Knowing that truth, love, safety, communication exists beneath the clutter and chatter of normal life, and that within our commonality of love and truth, we are, as one.

So, quite a wish. Quite a dream.

But though virtually impossible, it is actually possible. We are here, adding our bit to the wish, to the dream, in the knowledge that our dreams can come true.

Over the weekend there was an event whereby 4.3 million dominoes were lined up into a single linked system, and the world record was broken. If you look it up you will see it... It took many people many weeks to get everything ready, and in the right place, and I'm sure things went wrong, but it happened, and the record was broken. And, man, is it amazing to watch!

One last word from the weekend... 'Faith is the Flame in Your Heart'.

I am sooo happy to share this with you. xxx

Oh, if you wish to pass this around your family and friends, in a ripple effect, who knows what might happen. xxx 'Faith is the Flame in Your Heart'.

mark xxx

Monday, 17 November 2008

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SPIRITUAL ORGANIC 214

The light that shines in the heart has a power that can outshine the sun.

The warmth and light that we can experience, by closing our eyes and reflecting our vision inwards, towards the heart centre, can enable us to transcend, even if only momentarily, every single worry, fear and concern.

A moment, a snatched glimpse of the peace, the light, the safety, the nourishment, the security we need, is there. Right now.

And, it is us, we, who choose to release that connection, through familiarity, bad habits, laziness or foolishness. I can say this, as I know it from my own experience. My own laziness, my own foolishness.

I always thought I knew best, and this self-destructive and arrogant attitude, could have continued to blinker and separate me from my inner light. You see, and I know I am on a bit of a confessional here, but having a clear intelligence and intellect can actually serve to distract me, simply by reasoning positivity and peace out of the park.

In other words, I am too clever. More fool me.

But when its raining, I am going to shelter, I do wish to be closer to the light, dry and warm, and, the place of shelter, warmth and safety lies within. And at that time I shall leave my intellect by the door, along with my dripping raincoat, I shall step inside and experience... Stop thinking, and dry my toes by the fire.

I have such a clear image, of so many steaming stocking feet up, around a beautiful fire of warmth, love and peace, with laughter, happiness, sharing and loving, toasting forks, candlelight, where all my wishes can come true.

I can dream. I can wish. xxx

Friday, 14 November 2008

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SPIRITUAL ORGANIC 213

So, as I journey into the future of my life, I learn. I learn as I am seeing that which I have never seen before, and these things that I am seeing, I am growing to understand, have meaning in my life.

In other words, I am growing aware that everything that happens to me, both happens for a reason, and moreover, that reason can be realised and understood.

Extrapolating this to its conclusion, I am wondering, if with sufficient awareness, that every breath of wind I see and feel, every subtle flavour I taste, all the multitude of sounds I hear, and every scent I sense... as well as every appearance to my mind, might be understood with regard to the meaning it conveys?

I understand, that at this time, this appears to be an abstract or even an impossibility, but I am guessing that such awareness is possible.

And, if possible, what for? To what purpose?

Well, we were talking (like we do...), and asking ourselves this same question. And for us, we believe that every appearance we experience, carries the potential to teach, through the understanding that each appearance is a karmic impression, caused by our previous actions, and through understanding our past, in relation to the present, an exquisite refinement of our responses can be initiated, developing a fluidity of mind, a flexibility of response, that can be utilised and integrated into spiritual growth and development. In a nutshell, learning from the past.

Now I know this sounds a little, well, extreme, but I just thought I'd share a little of my aspirations with you..

Only dreaming now... xxx

Tuesday, 11 November 2008

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Last night we spent hours talking about truth, hours and hours. About why we should not be afraid of the Truth, why it was so difficult to speak the truth, and why we are ashamed of some aspects of the truth, and why we avoid talking about the truth.

We covered some semi-familiar ground, and gradually ventured into unexplored territory exposing truths to each other. For me a large part of the process of talking about my truths enabled me to understand, by clarifying, arranging and verbalising my truths, so that I could proceed to share them.

At some points, I felt myself cringing with an almost demented embarrassment, and an apologetic confessional exposure at the things I shared and aired.

But, with no exception all I said was listened to, understood and appreciated, and best of all, not criticised. You see, exposing weaknesses, failures and shameful behaviours is something that a good friend or partner will take on board, and be honoured to share, and the reason I can say this, as I myself was honoured to be placed in a position of trust, so that I could hear the truths of others.

And this brings me to another thought. That of keeping secrets. I was taught, by my mum, that the best way of knowing other's secrets is to never share them, by being an absolute fortress, never divulging a shared private truth or secret, and once a freind realises that this is the case, they will never be afraid of sharing with you, and this in turn helps them, as once a secret is shared, however dark and private, it 's power is lessened, as per the old maxim, 'a problem shared is a problem halved'.

What an honour, what a priveledge to share a secret. x

Saturday, 8 November 2008

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Oh, it can seem so difficult to ask for help. To admit that in my splendid isolation I cannot overcome all obstacles and hurdles, and that in my accumulated wisdom is not sufficient power and energy to continue to develop and grow.

And, in a sense this is true, but man, things can flow so much easier and quicker with a little help from my friends. And when I realise that I am lucky enough to be able to call upon the help of some extraordinary friends, this 'little help' becomes a big, big help.

Those friends with whom I share thoughts, jokes and ideas, those family members who listen and love unconditionally, those people whom I encounter once and then never see again, the rarefied spiritual teachers I have encountered and listened to, the hidden and mysterious energies and forces that can swing to our needs, to all these I seek help.

To grow, mature and increase our capabilities it is essential to communicate and share, a symbiosis that by the laws of karma, creates a rythmn that offers support and nuturing in balanced measure to that which we in turn offer.

But, should we deny that we need help, help will not be so evidentially forthcoming... So, I am learning to be able to ask for help. To ask for help, nourshishment, blessings and protection, in order to increase my positive capacities.

Thank you. xxx

Thursday, 6 November 2008

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I have been wondering if my dreams are possible, and I have come to realise that if I can imagine it, it is possible.

Why should any dream be beyond realisation? The realised dream may not manifest in the way I can imagine, but the reality will be the same.

I'll express an example, or try to... If, for example I wish for one of my children to be happy today, and imagine to realise this, and exert my wishes, and indeed tell them of my wishes, they tend to come true, but not in the exact manner I may have imagined.

This is as my idea of their happiness, and their idea of their happiness are different, and that the realisation of their happiness depends upon many factors of which I am not aware... Their individual experiences, meetings and occurrences through the day. A complex set of karmic appearances, and their individual relationship with each of these appearances.

In other words, how they react to their circumstance.

So, may I be daring enough enough to wish for happiness for many people that I know?

Yes, I can, and this wish is aided and assisted by individual communications that illuminate the possibility of hitherto unrealised potentials for happiness, maybe highlighting a dormant potential, and activating a thought process to stimulate that potential.

This is more than possible, it works.

Within me, and within you, are obscurred potentials, hidden by fear, neglected through distraction, maybe forgotten, but awaiting the appropriate stimulus to begin to grow.

Within me, and within you, these highest potentials will welcome the chance to grow, and overcome the repressive habits and tendencies, and once activated, can be nurtured and increased to the highest capacity.

I believe that within each one of us, lies the capacity to heal our lives, fulfill our wishes and help everyone we encounter to also develop their potential.

We simply need to stop being afraid of the potential of others, and nurture their capabilities... It will help us more than we maybe understand.. No need to envy, for each person has a different set of positive qualities, and, combined they will support us, not threaten us. There is no need to hold anyone back..

Start to imagine, start now.. x

Tuesday, 4 November 2008

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What is the measure of happiness, or, what is yours? How much money do I have in the bank? Does somebody really love me? Is my new car is running really well?

For me, it is a combination of about, say, about 100 check listed items, that, if all can reach a satisfactory standard, and can maintain that standard, for the foreseeable future, then, yes, of course I am happy.

You know what's coming... I only managed 94%, so I'm not quite happy enough...

And, you know what, I cannot remember when I got that 100 list all ticked and checked.. But somewhere, once, I was happy, really, really happy. Then what happened? Well, things changed. But they are always changing, so... if I can't stop things changing what can I do to prevent myself from becoming unhappy?

I can learn to keep my mind happy. Train to keep my mind happy. Learn methods and techniques for keeping my mind happy. Become so familiar with my happy mind that it will eventually revert to being happy, by itself...

And, this will bring contentment, peace and a relaxed attitude to the problems and trials of daily life.. It is so simple, so obvious, that I simple miss it most of the time. I am dumb really.

Saturday, 1 November 2008

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Wednesday's meditation was good. We had the best ever attendance at a class, and we even had to draft in some extra chairs... Good sign.

Guiding meditations is interesting, and not as some have suggested to me, repeated by rote... Part of my training taught me how to both meditate, and reveal (vocally), the processes of focusing the mind and relaxing the body, talking about it whilst I'm doing it really.

But being able to maintain focus and concentration of both aspects simultaneously, maybe a bit like rubbing your tummy in a circular fashion, whilst tapping your head (which I cannot do...). But with training I'm sure I could learn how.

So, why bother to learn how to meditate? Eh? Why? Well for me it works like this.

When I practice meditation, whether for 1 minute, 5 minutes or 20 minutes, what I am seeking to locate, and maintain, is an awareness of a peaceful state of mind, and, a peaceful mind is a happy mind. The more often I seek and identify this peaceful, happy state of mind, the more familiar I become with it, and over time, it becomes simpler, quicker and easier to find, to the extent it can become the default mind, as opposed the familiar irritated or angry mind that normally manifests.

Getting familiar with the state of mind you wish to inhabit! Getting used to being happy, peaceful and content. xxx

Thursday, 30 October 2008

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So, getting into love mode has some special advantages. The primary positive effect is that you will feel good, and that is not a bad thing. I mean, even a private smile softens the worlds hard edges...

And, it can be extended, into more than a moment, into 2 moments even...

Relaxing the body, into the breath, aligned with love, is medicine, a medicine that can temporarily and possibly permanently, heal our pains, help our worries to cease, and enable us to let go of all the inner tensions that prevent relaxation.

I'm now opening up the meditation group I lead, based in Brighton, that will be held in the chapel, at the Sussex County Hospital, on Wednesdays at 12.30. The class will last around 30 minutes, so just a short, but hopefully positive half hour.

Maybe see you there. x

Tuesday, 28 October 2008

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So, these songs of love...

We whisper from within our hearts, those issued carried by the breeze, afar forever until reached, in universal cycle's breath, encircling all, but in one dream, that meets at heaven's open doors, not closed to those who choose to sail, upon that fulsome billowed cloud, but with an ever widening path, that leads within again once more, the realisation sees within, that dawn is love, forevermore...

Each breath holds the power and potential to transform..

x

Monday, 27 October 2008

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Can anything stand in the way of love?

No, it has the power to connect and communicate at all levels. We may think that love is an abstract, a non-tangible construct of poets and dreamers, but it is the single connecting substance of all.

The substance of love cannot be physically grasped (though a bunch of flowers does the trick), nor subtly grasped (though a look into another's eyes can do the trick), but underlying both there exists that which is the very essence of existence, that which connects all, a unifying very subtle state, which, though rarely discerable, draws us to others, unites all humanity, totally and perfectly.

Some through choice, and others due to obscurations, deny this, but do you, do I, truly believe that love cannot connect and heal? For, this love can manifest as compassion, the sincere mental and emotional response to others suffering. Are we not all touched by images of pain, privation, in all its manifestations, be they theatrical, historical, undeniable or even simply possible?

Our heart strings, plucked by love, tuned to others, singing the songs of care and consideration... xxx

Sunday, 26 October 2008

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The relationship of the mind to the body is one of great wonder and mystery, simplicity and sophistication...

Through meditation, focus and concentration, an objective view of the body can be ascertained and from this position an analysis and consideration of bodily mechanics, functions and faults can be witnessed.

This is rather like a mechanic looking into the engine bay of a car, looking for leaks, damage or rust, and then raising the car onto a ramp to look at the running gear, breaks and bearings.

A trained mechanic can see quickly what and where the faults lie.

We are not given this information, guidance or maps to our own bodies, what the mechanic might call a 'service manual', and we tend to offer our own bodies to the understanding of others.

But, really, who actually knows more about our bodies than ourselves? Who is closer? Who has a more detailed history?

Those to whom we entrust our bodies, well-being and health, look for signs and indications with their eyes and to some extent their hands, and also some internal diagnostic systems, from probes to x-rays to scans, but these, extremely coarse methods, lack the capacity to understand the relationships of gross and subtle manifestations of illness, and their relationships with other organs and parts of the body, and their histories, and perhaps most importantly, the emotional relationships with each part of our body, and its relevant emotional histories.

Through meditation, the capacity to gain insights into the totality of the body, in its many levels... muscular, structural, functional and energetic become accessible. And through this process an inner diagnostic facility illuminates, drawing upon all our personal, and sometimes very private, histories...

For even those things which we cannot reveal to others about our histories, can also be, by some faulty and frightened internal filing system, lodged and locked within our minds and bodies, creating a blockage or diversion of the free flow within ourselves.

And, I am suggesting that many causes of our illness arise from these knots, of historic and self-deceptive origin, arising from a denial or burying of events, both 'real' and imagined...

With a desire to look, and a still mind, an apparent objectivity of the body can be 'seen', witnessed and experienced, facilitating a healing experience...

Yes. The healing of one's self, in both the emotional and physical.

Why not? Tell me, why not? Why can you not see exactly what is happening within yourself? Just by making the decision to look, to be open to the possibility that this is possible, actually opens up the pathway to healing, initially releasing the emotional tsunami that lies behind our wall of rigidity.

And this privacy of release allows the waves of inner vision, of self healing, to commence....

This is the start of looking within.

Thursday, 23 October 2008

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My life seems to be accelerating at the moment, the time of stasis seems past, and action and event are rapidly appearing.

This may be a seasonal thing, as I know that I feel energised and inspired in the Autumn time before, but this time it does appear to have a more powerful aspect than before.

The possibilities of life are increasing, the event horizon is broadening, and the sense of communication with the future is drawing clearer, and thereby the options of choice, though unchanged, have an almost magnetic quality, and the choices are clarifying to direct and linked events, facilitating the appearance of being above to have my wishes come true.

So, with this being possible, what might I wish for, and how might I affect the outcomes I desire?

This is where I feel most fortunate. I spent 12 years looking at, understanding, fixing and clarifying my intention, and as such have gained insight into how the outcome of a thought, or wish, is closely related to the intention behind that wish.

The desires and wishes are powered, or fuelled by the intention, as the intention is the motivating force or power behind the wish.

There is a common saying 'be careful what you wish for', and this saying arises from the experiences of those whose wishes have been (ahem) less than ideal...

Wishes do come true, every moment...

Tuesday, 21 October 2008

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I was thinking over the weekend, pondering what it is that we conceal from ourselves.

Much of what we conceal, is really what we vainly attempt to conceal, and that self-deception, that which we consider we master, manifests, visible to others.

In this way, others can know more about us than we might wish for them to see. And, why not? What is that we do not wish to show?

I am going to make a general guess here.

Underlying our fixed projection of ourselves lies a perfected being, who, as afraid of being perceived to be 'weak' attempts to issue a rather cool, perhaps even cold projection, to prevent possible exploitation.

Now then, how often have we heard... 'Oh, he/she is such a beautiful and loving person, but it takes a long time to get to know them'.

Defence mechanism, tsk.

So, how about the option of showing those loving, caring, generous, compassionate sides of our personality, without fear of exposure or exploitation.

Or. Is it a case of 'I will show you mine if you show me yours'.

So, how about an amnesty. An amnesty of false ego, a chance to hand in our false and frightened identities at the desk, and bare our souls to each other.

I will show you mine first. Take that attitude, show the way, create the difference, be unafraid. As, you may think that you will be percieved as weak, but that is not the case, you will earn the trust and respect of others.

Or, how about this? An International Day of Open Hearts.

Suggest a date please.... xxx

Monday, 20 October 2008